Okay I've passed 10th grade, and I'm having fun with my friends right now I can't belive how. I'm going to Florida for a week and a day starting Fri. the 13th. So I'll be gone then. I hope I can hang out with my friends more over the summer before school starts though, now for the new fun game!:

What you do is get two or more people (including yourself) and you each go around in an order or people and say one word each making a sentence, and a person will end it when they think it's neded. Some examples between Me, Braxdon, and Dennis (we revolved who said the first word in the sentence, for example, I'm the blue bullet, Dennis is the red, and Braxdon is the yellow.):

I love men who lolz about seeing men do silly things in their bathrooms that hump ppl outside in public.

Cats are wet when they lick themselves down in the deep dark basement behind the grandfather clock.

Okami does dirty naughty dancing on Braxdon's pole only when Okami is high on stuff that she found on the ground!

Wankers are very kinky and smell fishy like Darth Vader is.

Most of all periods drive men INSANE!!!

I lost six friends. I knew four of them very well and two of them were those friends you wanted to know but never got the chance to. They died, they weren't murdered, or in an accident. It's hard to explain really how they died. Tears shed from my eyes as I watched them sleep in silence to never be woken again, and while I did so, I met someone they knew. He knew me, because he knew my friends well, They may be dead, and their lives may be in mine and other memories, but they are dead, and I have to move on. He and I are getting along, and we are good friends, I hope I can do him good as he will me. He's a very sweet boy, he needs love, and gentleness for I fear he may break at a wrong move, but he's very mature, and very strong. I belive, that their lives were not in vain, and I shall hang my head in silence for the week, for the months, for the years, remembring this moment, the moment they died. No sympothy is needed, for they will fade like ashes in the water, where they may be there, but we will not see them...

Hey-o everyone! Been awhile since I updated and all XD been kinda busy I guess? Well, my b-day is on Feb. 3 which is this coming sun. I'm kinda happy and kinda bummed in some ways, the usual. My 16th b-day what can ya expect? Also, I made the JV soccer team! (the one I wanted to) >w< so yea. I had been working wo hard for soccer to. Going to practice everyy day, not missing a single one, and I went through the 4 day try out trial. It was hard, but I got on the team I wanted and with my friends to! I've been reading a good bit more and writing down a few stories in a paper spiral binder. It makes me happy to know my friend friend Fia reads it and enjoys reading it. The stories consit of Mana and Jett while Jett is in his dream and my new one is between Micheal and Shane. Shane is my guy form and Micheal is 's character male form. I can't honeslty wait to see what I'm getting for my birthday and such. Nor can I wait to go through my adrinalin shooting soccer games. Also orchestra is kinda getting a bit hectic, but it's still very fun. And soon I have to sign up for classes soon. Every single one of my classes are booked so no internship till my seniour year. I really wanna do that, it'd be fun. I'm defiantly choosing photography as my profession because my aunt gave me a photographers guide to tips on using the camera and such, and the pictures in it took me away and made me want to do such things. Honestly I'm in no rush to graduate. I'm happy in my school life right now, being with my friends and playing around. Haven't been drawing much but I do now and again, with school lately and trying to read manga and give them back as soon as I can, case after christmas I had like 20 mangas to read XD so was not easy. My science teacher got a tralanchula so I'm kinda spooked about going into his room to go see the sneak >> and don't say anything Cass if you're reading this, that goes for you too Braxdon and Fia. Painters came to our house and painted the walls, and I rearanged my room and I feel very comfy this way. I'm closer to my bed and such, so I can lay down now and again so I'm kinda happy. I've been missing a good ol' brother of mine. And three people as well but I got to talk to them recently so I'm overly happy about that! Well, I better stop talking before I jabber to much XD bye everyone, until next time!

Yay Christmas joys! Have fun!

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Stuff I got >w< :

Board Games: Big Brain Academy, Balderdash, Pirates of The Caribean Puzzle: Photomosaics

Games: Cooking With Mama: & Friends 2 (DS), Pirates of The Caribean (PS2, PC), Brain Age 2 (DS), DDR Supernova 2, High School Musical: Sing It!

Movies and CD's: Harry Potter and The Order of The Pheonix, Pirates of The Caribean: At Worlds End, Rascal Flats (CD) with MV

Mangas: Chibi Vampire 3-5, Aishiteru Baby 1-2, Black Cat 10, Full Moon 1-2, Loveless 7, Dragon Knight 1, Vampire Knight 1-2, Kamui 1-2, Fushigi Yugi 1 (both versions)

Extras: MP3 Player (4GB, video, pictures, songs), Cloths, Night/Lounge Wear, Spanish Learning (PC), Candy, Pezs

I've been stressed up... sad and depressed... I really don't wanna go to anyone right now, nor do I wanna in the near future... My boyfriend and I lost contact with one another a few days before Halloween, so right now, i'm torn apart scared, worried, fearful... how can I not really? I've been crying lately, been causeing myself pain to just take it away. Things are happening at school, I finnaly got through my exams and passed my classes. Rumors are going around... and I've pulled my friends in them. I want them out, so they don't get hurt. I'm hurting friends now I know, and it makes me sad. Lately I've been having nightmares, and Nightmareish-day dreams. I'm going to back off everyone... anyone who wants me back near for how long they desire, you got my contact, I'll still come on DA now and again, but I won't my messengers, and you got my other contacts like email and numbers and such... Also, I've been falling back in my mood that I was in a while back, with slitting my wrist. I haven't hit it yet, but in a few days, I'm sure I'll fall in it, after all, everything can be used for a harmful object right? I'm crying, I'm sad, I'm dying inside with all this happening. It won't stop, and I know it, I just... wanna cling to someone without being pushed away. I'm clinging terribly right now, to someone who's getting aggitated by it. I wouldn't leave them be, and seeing this, I chose to leave the messengers and them alone, for a few days, weeks... I dunno. My biggest fear, is being alone. Having no one to talk to, to not be near anyone... because it scares the crap out of me. My dad is abusive with his words, and my mom can't help me much. I have no friends to come to my rescue like my friend Cass can with his girlfriend... I'm happy she has a knight and shining armour to save her. I've always wanted someone, just I have no one really. Christmas is scareing me again, because on christmas eve I threw up due to too much olive juice in my system. Spent a long time near the tolite crying. That was two years ago. Last year, my grandfather died... I never knew him much but what will happen this year seriously? I'm just waiting for somthing to lash out and stab me... hit me... We're trying to move from my house to a new one, and it's hard, for we have not much time to pack and such... I feel left out from a lot of things. My friend Fia seems to act distant around me, and she seems to support my perversion one second then hate it the next, so it leaves me confused. As well as I have to watch what I do around her, what I say, she's my dear beloved friend. I'm just getting jealous over her having a new friend that she's enjoying and such... Another thing is Cass... I love him as my aniki, just, from when I first started calling him my brother to now. It's differen't. Ever since he came back from Europe.. our relationship has changed, and it's scared me. He loves his girlfriend dearly, and I understand this, I just miss him... something happened that spooked me when I called him once, and I know he feels sorry for neglecting me, but, he can only do so much before he breaks, and I don't want that. But... what has scared me the most, pained me the hardest, and stabbed me the deepest in my heart, is my life is repeating itself. My last boyfriend, was somewhat neglecting me, we rarely saw one another, now it's repeating, and it's scareing me... I'm falling, I'm crying... Soon, I might be plumiting somewhere, and hurt myself before anyone can save me... so... I'm going to be gone from talking for awhile, I dunno... bye...