Okay, so I've come to terms with some emotions that I just can't have bottoled up any more or I'll burst soon. Now, a few friends have told me to go to the people that are causing me the mixed feelings and tell them how I feel but... I don't want to deal with the "I'm sorries" or "it's not my fault" or "it's not only my fault" or any of that stuff. I just don't. So I thought that posting a journal and having them see if would be a bit better, it saves speaking to them but causes a bit more arguments maybe. Now, these things havn't just started happening, these kinds of things have been going on for a long time...

For one, my best friend, she's gone through fazes in which she thinks she's being replaced. For you to know this, my best friend, you never will be replaced. No matter much how you may anger me or get on my nerves. Piss me off by saying somthing to me, and I don't enjoy being bossed around, no one will replace you, cause I care to much for you, and your attention needy personality. I know you've grown weary of me talking to friends more than you at times, but you've done your equal fair share in the same thing to make me feel just as left out. But even if I do hang out with them a lot, it doesn't mean I'm going to replace them for you. We've been through thick and thin, and through many arguments and spats at one another. But it's what makes us such good friends.

Another things is, to a few other incidents, I feel very neglected. Friends have been invited here and there and I can understand some things and some... I feel like I'm not wanted. Then theres one friend who snaps very harshly to me a lot and I feel pure pain and anger at her for that. Though these are just friends inside our small group, and like only two of them aren't causing me head strain and anger towards them. I just... I just don't want to put up with it anymore. and I can't put up with it anymore.... I've cracked enough

I know I'm going to regret this journal, it's just easier than going to all you and hearing the reasons why I should feel like this... I'm going to sleep some because I've been drained from school, soccer, and a never ending period/egg drop or what the crap it is... Goodbye, and please don't give messages saying "sorry I didn't know you felt this way" or anything sympethatic like that, I don't want to deal with this shit anymore.