Okay, so I don't know who all will see this, but if you do, whoop de doo...

My life has gotten dull and sad lately. I get bored after work because I have nothing to do. I get jealous to see my friends all going out to hang out, and I'm not there to have fun. I've been told since my first best friend by their parents that I shouldn't hang out with them, or they shouldn't with me... Breaks my heart really, to be told that. I always wounder what I do wrong, what happened to cause this... but I never can get a real answer.

It's my senior year, and all I have to look forward to... really nothing. No friends to hang out with after graduation, no close family to laugh with and relate to, boyfriend is in another state, and most of my friends are moving away or under grades and I may never see them again... I randomly fell asleep the other day, no one could wake me till I woke of my own accord and I just didn't care. Depression is coming back I believe, for it comes with boredom and sadness but it may pass. I need to find something to do, but with no one to hang out with, what can I do?

And before anyone goes "just ask and hang out with them!" I grew up taught by my family to NEVER ask to hang out, to be invited. Because I was always asked "were you invited or did you invite yourself?" and I felt scared to see what would happen if I invited myself. I also hear how friends would hate for someone to come over and randomly ask to hang out, and I don't want to be like that. If you don't ask to hang out with me, I will believe you want nothing with me. And upon that, I will not ask to be at your house to hang out.

Another thing is, I'm not really looking forward to College. Scholarships, deadlines, resumes, and all this other shit and test and stuff... I wish it would all go away, I'm not up for this stuff and I don't find it helpfull. But all I'm doing is whining and ranting but I don't care, I think I'd rather anyone who wants to read this know how I bloody damn feel... because I'm already loosing all my friends and have lost some, what's a better way than just accepting it and letting life kick me in the ass for being a bad person in every adults god damn eyes.

Oh, Happy Birthday Melissa, Kelly, Ash Pash, Becca, Tiffany, and Corrisa, also my Cuz and Grandma.

1. EVER BEEN GIVEN A RING?
Yep.

2. LONGEST RELATIONSHIP?
3 years

3. LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED?
Coraline and $30

4. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU DROPPED YOUR CELL?
To many.

5. WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU WORKED OUT?
a month ago

6. THING(S) YOU SPEND A LOT OF MONEY ON?
Manga and books XD

7. LAST FOOD YOU ATE?
Spagetti

8. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Hair and face along with body built

9. ONE FAVORITE SONG?
Puscifer - Rev 22:20

10. WHERE DO YOU LIVE?
in my house

11. HIGH SCHOOL YOU ATTENDED?
UGHS

12. CELL PHONE SERVICE PROVIDER?
T-Mobile

13. WHATS YOUR FAVORITE COLOR?
Blue

14. LONGEST JOB HELD?
...

15. DO YOU OWN A PAIR OF DICE?
yes, many XD

16. DO YOU PRANK CALL PEOPLE?
nope

17. LAST WEDDING ATTENDED?
ugh.... my Cuz Ben's, like... 2 years ago?

18. FIRST FRIEND YOU'D CALL IF YOU WON THE LOTTERY?
Braxdon

19. LAST TIME YOU ATTENDED CHURCH?
*thinks* 3 years ago? it was my first and last time XD

20. FAVORITE FAST FOOD RESTAURANT?
Chick-Fil-A

21. BIGGEST LIE YOU HAVE HEARD?
One person said they were doing something and did the opposite.

22. FAVORTIE FOOD?
Strawberries

23. WHERE'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO EAT WITH FRIENDS?
Cici's Pizza

24. CAN YOU COOK?
Yes

25. WHAT CAR DO YOU DRIVE?
1998 Black Pontiac Sunfire

26. BEST KISSER?
Only kissed one guy XD

27. LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
This past sunday/

28. MOST DISLIKED FOOD?
Chocolate

29. FAVORTIE TYPE OF MUSIC?
Anything but rap, blues, and a lot of black singers (some are oaky but they're getting weird lately...)

30. THING YOU DISLIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF?
My weight and heredity double chin

31. THING YOU LIKE THE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF?
Eyes and hair, and my ability to be one of the guys

32. LONGEST SHIFT YOU HAVE WORKED AT A JOB?
...

33. FAVORITE MOVIE?
Really no favorite, can think of one.

34. CAN YOU SING?
Kinda

35. LAST CONCERT ATTENDED?
I attended a Orchestra concert, I play the Cello

36. LAST KISS?
Dec. 10 '08

37. LAST MOVIE RENTED?
Horton Here's A Who

38. THING YOU NEVER LEAVE HOME WITHOUT?
Senior Ring and Cell

39. FAVORITE VACATION SPOT?
Savannah

40. DO YOU LIKE CHINESE FOOD?
Eh

41. HOW BIG IS YOUR BED?
Twin right now, but will be a queen later

42. IS YOUR ROOM CLEAN?
Kinda

43. LAPTOP OR DESKTOP COMPUTER?
Desktop

44. FAVORITE COMEDIAN?
Dance Cook, Dat Phan, and Jeff Dunhamm

45. DO YOU SMOKE?
Ew no

46. SLEEP WITH OR WITHOUT CLOTHES ON?
off

47. WHO SLEEPS WITH YOU EVERY NIGHT?
my thoughts

48. DO LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS WORK?
depends on the person and how long a distance

49. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BEEN PULLED OVER BY THE POLICE?
once

50. PANCAKES OR FRENCH TOAST?
pancakes

51. DO YOU LIKE COFFEE?
no

52. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?
scrambled

53. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ASTROLOGY?
Eh

54. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Braxdon

55. LAST PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALL LIST?
Dad

56. WHAT WAS THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECIEVED?
From Brit

57. MCDONALDS OR BURGER KING?
Both

58. NUMBER OF PILLOWS?
6

59. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW
Robe and panties

60. PICK A LYRIC, ANY LYRIC OR SONG?
"Dance, Fucker, Dance! He never had a chance!"

61. WHAT KIND OF JELLY DO YOU LIKE ON YOUR PB & J SANDWICH?
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeew

62. CAN YOU PLAY POOL?
nope

63. DO YOU KNOW HOW TO SWIM?
Yes

64. FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
Vinerra

65. DO YOU LIKE MAPS?
*shrugs*

66. TELL ME A RANDOM FACT ABOUT YOURSELF?
I'm a virgin even though I have the thoughts and mind of one that isn't, so shove it you f'ers! Just because I know shit don't mean I've had sex damnit!

67. ARE YOU HAPPY WITH YOUR LIFE SO FAR?
yes... kinda... I mean you can't be TOTALY happy with it, just ain't right.

68. EVER ATTEND A THEME PARTY?
yes

69. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON?
fall

70. LAST TIME YOU LAUGHED AT SOMETHING STUPID?
the last time I did

71. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THIS MORNING?
7am

72. BEST THING ABOUT WINTER?
snow and snuggling with loved ones... and button up shirts *grins*

73. LAST TIME A COP GAVE YOU A TICKET?
never

74. CATS OR DOGS?
both

75. NAME OF YOUR FIRST PET?
Baby and Shelly

76. DO YOU THINK PIRATES ARE COOL OR OVERRATED?
cool

77. WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS WEEKEND?
going to a birthday party

78. HAS SOMEONE YOU LOVE EVER DIED?
yes

79. WHAT IS THE THIRD LETTER OF YOUR NAME?
A

80. HOW OLD ARE YOUR PETS?
dead.......

81. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
In a womb

82. ARE YOU SICK?
No

83. DO YOU GO TO SCHOOL?
Didn't you just ask me like 40 questions ago where I went...?

84. IS THE BATHROOM OPEN?
yes

85. ARE YOU ON A LAPTOP?
fbslgdbs you already asked which I had!

86. ARE YOU WATCHING MTV?
ew no

87. ARE YOU SMILING?
no

88. DO YOU HAVE EYELINER ON?
gross

89. DO YOU LIKE TO DANCE?
eh

90. ARE YOU BLONDE?
Straberry blonde, and before you say anything, shut your trap

91. EVER BEEN IN A CAR ACCIDENT?
no

92. DO YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND?
yes

93. WHO IS YOUR CRUSH?
Hughe Jackman

94. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NAME?
Alice, Olivia, and Shane

95. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR BATHING SUIT/TRUNKS?
Mixed

96. DOES YOUR SCHOOL START IN AUGUST?
yes

97. DID YOU GO ON VACATION LAST MONTH?
no

98. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON A CRUISE?
yes

99. DO YOU HAVE A SISTER?
no

100. ARE YOU UPSTAIRS?
nope

PART ONE
EMO
[x] you own at least 5 black shirts
[ ] you like skinny jeans
[x] you're listening to music right now
[x]you have painted your fingernails black before
[x] You have more than 300 songs on your ipod/mp3
[x] Have attempted suicide
[ ] Like the color black
[x] hate girly girls
[x] have kissed the same sex before
[x] Like to be alone
[x] hate popular music
[ ] keep hair in front of your face
[ ] give people evil stares
[x] Hate your parents or one of them
[ ] Life sucks for you right now
[x] have been called emo
[ ] Dislike the colors pink, green, teal and baby blue
[ ] own thick-rimmed glasses
[ ] Complain a lot
[x] own a studded belt
Total: 12


PART TWO
SLUT/MAN WH0RE
[ ] own more than 10 minishorts
[ ] own more than 10 miniskirts
[ ] have kissed more than 7 people
[x] have been called a slut
[ ] drink a lot
[ ] You wear dark eye makeup
[ ] wear low cut shirts
[x] have been called a tease
[ ] Flirt with everyone
[x] love the opposite sex
[ ] Go to parties/sleepovers at least once a week
[ ] wear tight clothing
[x] own 5 tube tops
[ ] you've kissed more than 2 guys/girls
[ ] Like wearing swimsuits
[x] Sit on the opposite sex's lap
[ ] People hate you
[x] Its nice to be naughty
[x] you cuss because you think its fun
Total: 7


PART THREE
JOCK
[ ]own at least 5 jerseys
[x] Have 10 or more trophies
[ ]Wear hair up almost everyday
[ ] Love sports
[x] Own 5 or more sweatpants
[x] Dont wear makeup
[ ] Have / had played lacrosse
[ ]Play/played more than 2 sports
[x] Play sports
[x] Can play a sport if you've never played it before
[ ] On first string
[ ] You play/played Tennis
[ ] You play/played Basketball
[ ] You play/played baseball-softball
[x] You play/played soccer
[ ] You run/ran track
[ ] You play/played football
[ ] Been called a jock
[ ] Have set a record
[x] are friends with your coach
[ ] love watching sports
[x]can do 17 push-ups in 20 seconds
total: 8

PART FOUR (doesn't apply to guys)
GIRLY
[] own at least 5 polos (uniform!)
[] Own at least 5 pink shirts
[] Own at least 5 designer bags
[] wear ribbons in you hair sometimes
[] Love pearls
[]Only like popular music
[] Read tons of magazines
[] love shopping
[] Go shopping usually once a week
[] Voted prom queen
[x] have dated a jock
[] like attention
[x] always have your cellphone with you
[] have more than 50 contacts on your phone
[] more than 30 guy contacts
[] hate emo people
[]wear make up
[] Are stupid
[] wear heels
Total: 2


PART 5
NERD
[ ] wear your pants above your belly button
[x] wear glasses/contacts
[ ] have/had braces
[x] In/have been in advanced classes
[ ] On Math team
[ ] Have all A's
[x] have been called a nerd
[x] are bullied [have been]
[ ] LOVE to learn
[x]Like your teachers
[x] Watch history channel
[x] Never go anywhere on the weekends
[x] Have been called weird
[ ] Scared to talk to the opposite sex
[x] Dont have pics of yourself on myspace
[x]Read a book a month in your leisure time
[x]You read on your last spring break
[ ] Have your own website
[ ] wear pocket protectors
[ ] done/does test corrections when you got above a 90 on it
[x] did/does extra-credit when average is over an 85
[ ] take notes on what the teachers tell you not to worry about.
Total: 12

PART 6
THUG
[x] own baggy/ long clothing
[ ] like to talk like a thug
[ ] you own gold/ silver chains
[ ] have a flat brimmed hat
[ ] like to wear a certain color because of a gang
[ ] you are in a gang
[ ] you mostly listen to rap music
[ ] you own clothes from lines such as ecko, sean john, g unit, 69, south pole, rasta, notorious
[ ] you have a nice sound system in your car
[ ] you never walk... you strut
[ ] you dont like haters from rival gangs
[ ] you have a thug nickname
[x] you hate emo people
[x] you hate punk kids
[ ] you have made a gang
[ ] you can name more than 20 rappers {that you actually listen to}
[ ] you can dance
[ ] you want to rap when you are older
[ ] you love turntables
[x] hate the punks that are in fake gangs.
Total: 4

If you haven't noticed The parts represent the 6 high school stereotypes
Part 1= Emo
Part 2= Sl-t / man wh0re
Part 3= Jock
Part 4= Girly (doesn't apply to guys)
Part 5= Nerd
Part 6= Thug
Multiply each number by 3 then repost as_ % Emo, 36% Slut, 21% Jock, 24% Girly, 6% Nerd, 36%Thug 12%

You remember this ---> [link] ? It's 's Pic. Well, I've been in the mood to do something artistic so I decided to color it. Well, I've come up with several ideas and still experimenting, and I may post some of them on here to see what all yall think about it but it may end up as a poll to see who likes which more.

I love you Ash Pash, this and a yarn ball, you're just getting shit from me now XD

EDIT: I finnaly posted it, here it is! -----> [link]

Doing this cause no one has been talkin to me cept my boyfriend since sunday so I'm bored as hell kinda.

RULES: Go to google and type in your first name and the phrase.

Copy and paste the first sentence/phrase you get that makes sense.

Tag 3 friends.

Please be mature and use your REAL 1st name.

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Q: Type in "[your name] needs" in the Google search:
A: Amanda Needs prayers and the Lord Jesus Christ's guidance and protection. (.... now that scares me)

Q: Type in "[your name] looks like" in Google search:
A: Amanda Looks Like she just came off a boat from Easter Island.

Q: Type in "[your name] says" in Google search:
A: Amanda Says As crazy as it sounds, we lie to make it seem like we're not Little Miss Bitch. (OwO)

Q: Type in "[your name] wants" in Google search:
A: Amanda Wants the flu last week and went bezerk, almost poked her eyes out with boredom and became a better person. (scaaaary indeed.)

Q: Type in "[your name] does" in Google search:
A: Amanda Does it again! (what I do again?)

Q: Type in "[your name] hates" in Google search:
A: Amanda Hates ME. (well Cass, we both hate ME)

Q: Type in "[your name] asks" in Google search:
A: Amanda Asks 'What Would Google Do?'

Q: Type in "[your name] goes" in Google search:
A: Amanda Goes to jail! (shit they finaly caught me!)

Q: Type in "[your name] likes " in Google search:
A: Amanda Likes to eat cheez doodles and junk food, prefers coca-cola to water (can anyone explain that one?)

Q: Type in "[your name] eats " in Google search:
A: Amanda Eats brains and my meat. (I'm a zombie now...)

Q: Type in "[your name] wears " in Google search:
A: Amanda Wears the ampquotgirlish frock of yellowed voile with a blue silk sashampquot that she wore on the day she met her boyfriend. (the F***?)

Q: Type in "[your name] was arrested for" in Google Search
A: Amanda Was Arrested For possession of crack, prostitution, a bar fight and her misdemeanors of drinking durring prohibition and for stealing pearls out of a store. (yay prostatution! XD)